just had lunch and thought i'd sneak in a quick update before i resume mugging again.

i happened to read through an old blog last night, and boy did it bring back memories.
that's one thing i like about having a blog, you can actually track your own thoughts and changes throughout that time span.

here's what someone special told me before - i'm a very prideful person, and if anyone does or says something to hurt it, i become very spiteful. sarcasm usually entails, and i'll use my left brain hemisphere (pardon the psych shit) for the wrong purposes - to hurt someone dear to me. Although its somewhat a part of me, i believe one day i'll manage to change that, to become a more accepting and forgiving person.

several things happened last year, which changed my outlook and perspective on many things. i used to believe in the notion that if you're patient and persistent (in a good way) in waiting for that special someone, he/she would eventually, in layman's terms, like you back and everyone would have a happy ending.

some people believe in that, some people don't. i used to, but not anymore.

these days, i believe in reciprocity. if the person you like or whom you're attracted to, isnt giving you back the responses that you're looking for, then there's no point. i always believe that for a relationship to work, or for it to even start, there must be a two-sided exchange. Reciprocity is like fuel, which keeps the momentum going. If i were a girl, and i'm interested in a guy who's interested in me as well, i'll definitely text him/ask him out, etc. These days, guys usually appreciate girls who do such things, rather than girls who just sit there and wait for things to happen, believing in their old-school notions of romanticism.

Wait for things to happen = nothing. As simple as that. For me at least.

That said, if the girl you like isn't giving you back the appropriate responses you're looking for, then there really isn't a point in investing your emotions and time on her. Correct?

Realistically speaking, i'm definitely right. If the girl isnt interested in you, the 1000000 sweet things you do for her won't even compare to the 1 sweet thing which someone else she's interested in did for her.

hahaha, alright enough of the depressing stuff. i've always been fascinated by male-female attraction. maybe next time when i'm old and retired, i shall write a book on it.

On a lighter note, psych mid term results are out! 35/40, which isnt too shabby imo, considering i always pull last minute chiong study stunts. (even now)

anyway Hazel, if you're reading this, i hope you're feeling better already. :)