was going home from ben's house just now. and suddenly i just felt..void. i'm neither pissed nor sian or whatsoever, tho i might look kinda peeved. for some reason or another, something was gnawing at me, and i dont know what it is. i was just pissed because i was. no one said anything nor did anything.

to add to the point, im not trixxing anyone. whatever "liking" there was, has already dwindled down to 0. and im not gonna put up with anymore of those mindless teasing. its fucked up. i dont care whether im talking to her or what, just know that i aint liking anybody now. so yea. whatever good points i saw in her pales in comparison to her flaws. dont ask me why. but i just think that way, even though i convince myself that is not so. i dont care if its a waste or not either, so fuck off.