hmm. 12.20 am. and i'm feeling nostalgic again. whenever i look down frm my block, i see an empty park, an isolated playground, a long canal, and a sparse highway. and i cant help but think abt everything that has happened to me thru out the 17 yrs of my life. the people i've met, the stuff i've been through, everything just surfaces at this point of time. hmm, right now, i'd like to climb up some really high place, lie down and look at the night sky and just ponder. huiwen asked me this outta nowhere "is it possible to stay devoted to a person forever?" i dont think anyone knows the answer. its just as impossible to answer as "is it possible to love a person forever?" so much paradoxes, so much ironies in life. yet day by day we ask ourselves the same question over and over again. girls like to ask emselves if relationships will work out. they contemplate day and night abt stuff which is like totally irrelevant to the entire issue. the thing is, how would u know if u dont give it a try? i'm not trying to be sexist or whatsoever. but that's whats happening to most of the guy friends arnd me now. and its irritating to keep on discovering that its the same problem thats bugging them all. kinda funny that its now the guys who get pwned by girls. i wonder why.